Seeing as this is my first blog, I should probably introduce myself.
My name is Amanda, i go by Mandi.
I'm 23 (will be 24 next month), a full time college student, i make jewelry and abstract paintings in my free time.
That is when I have free time. I watch my 2 year old niece most of the time, because my sister works 2 jobs and my temporary job with the census just ended.
Anyways, this blog is meant as away for me to reduce and release stress, any type of writing is known to do that. so here goes:
I'm rather depressed lately, and i don't know if its because my brain is under stimulated while i await for the fall semester to begin, or because home life sucks the big one lately. I'm going to go with the latter.
Right now I currently reside with my sister (who is two years younger) and her 2 year old daughter. And I know that doesn't sound horrible....but it does get worse. My job ended last week, it was just a temporary one with the census, but it was something in this downward spiraling economy. And I have been beating the streets looking for one. I've gone to trillium and Michigan works, i look in the paper every week, and i even look online with no luck. I don't really want to leave the area because of school, and once i finish school i want to open my own business. maybe an indoor laser tag and arcade or an all inclusive religious gift store.
Anyways it occurred to me the other day that i do an awful lot for my sister, but I'm highly under appreciated. I watch her daughter when she goes to work and doesn't feel like paying for extra daycare, i go to the store for her and plan meals and cook and make sure laundry is done and i do the house work when its my turn (we have this one day i do it the next day she does it rule). yet lately, i clean, my sister takes credit in front of her friends, I'm told to clean when its her turn and if not i get the "30 days to find a new place because you cant follow the rules" talk from my little sister!!! Talk about rude! So I've gone on strike.... the house is a mess, my stress level is through the roof, and i don't know what to do.
On top of all this, people in town are talking about my sister behind her back. She honestly deserves the whispers and sideways glances, but I'm afraid that her actions are going to hurt her daughter more in the long run. Lets put it this way...... just two nights ago she went out to the bar with friends (all guys), brought one home to "sleep", and then tonight she went out with another guy. all this while saving up money to go see another guy in Hawaii. in high school i stuck up for her because of this same reputation that unfolded, but she is no longer a child, and i cant protect her anymore. i have tried to talk to her about this, and so has our birth mother, i have yet to tell our father and stepmother. I'm afraid of what will happen to my niece further down the road.
well that's all my ranting for now, I've got jewelry to work on to match renaissance costumes. ttyl,
Mandi <3
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